So I was prego and now I not. Many emotions running through me today. Don't realize how much you want to something until it is gone. Had many many bad response to the news that I was pregnant. I don't care. Think what you want, judge as you wish. I can and will take care of myself. Now no one has to worry. Someone's prayers were answered. Not mine. I love being a mom and looked forward to a new child joining our family. Wasn't planned but was welcomed. Don't want sympathy from anyone but my husband. (Not writing this for anyone to feel sorry for me). Just want to write how I feel. So one day when I am big and pregnant with my 4th child I can look back and feel good about things cuz right now that is defiantly not the case.
K so I used to make fun of people behind there backs when the told me they cried when their oldest child went to Kindergarten. I remember clearly thinking "I can't wait! I will be so thrilled!"
It all started when I went to her orientation on Friday. They are telling us all the stuff these little 5 year olds are in charge of and all I could think of is "Is Brooklyn ready for all of this? Am I ready for all of this?"
So the night before she went to school her dad gave her a wonderful blessing- which talked about that she would be a strong little girl, make good friends, and come to her Heavenly Father any time she need help. Can I just say what a blessing it is to have the priesthood in our home. Can I just say I was in the worst mood that whole night which totally put a damper on everyone else's mood.
Well the next morning Brooklyn was wide awake at 7 am, so excited!! Me not so much! Her dad and I took her to school, walked her into her classroom and got her all set. I kept saying "OK Brooklyn, OK Brooklyn, OK Brooklyn." Andrew finally gave me the look and I knew it was time to go.
I admit, I cried all the way out to the car! I realize that my little girl is growing up. I am not going to be there to make sure people are nice to her, that she makes good friends that will be a good influence on her. I don't want her to make the same mistakes I made! I want her to be smart about her choices in life and realize that effect each of these choices will have on her life. And it all starts here!
But I guess I have to have FAITH in my little girl and in my Heavenly Father. I just do all I can on my side and he will do the rest! RIGHT!! RIGHT!!!
Someone in my family told Brooklyn we are eating at Cinderella's castle when we go to Disney World in November. The funny thing is Brooklyn has no clue when November is so everyday she tells me she wants to eat at the castle when I ask her what she wants for lunch! It is going to be a long 6 months!
Brooklyn got a new stroller for her dollies but isn't allowed to have until she goes poop in the potty (refer to old blog). She refuses to go number 2 in the potty but really really want her stroller. Anyways she comes to me one night and saysBrooklyn: "My dolly so heavy."Me: "I sorry."Brooklyn: "I think I need my stroller to put heavy dolly in."She thinks she is so slick! Must get it from her dad!
We are pulling into Walmart yesterday and Brooklyn says, Brooklyn: "I get a snow white toy?" Me: "We'll see." Brooklyn: "Don't say no mama. You be nice to me." Honestly what do you say to that?
Brooklyn wakes up a Grandma Lemmons house this morning and tells grandma, Brooklyn: "I wanna make cookies!" (At 8:30 in the morning I might add.) Grandma: "I've got to go to work right now." Brooklyn: "Grandma, girls don't go to work, boys do." Where she gets her logic I'll never know. Hope grandma is ok!
I picked up Drew yesterday and he tells me that he got his license to shoot birds. (Which I am not a fan of of but that is up to him). Anyways he says he was able to go hunting last week. I said- ME: "How did you do?" DREW: "I can't hit the broad side of a barn" just a serious as can be.
Grandma and Brooklyn were making cookies and grandma happened to be a little tired. In the process of making cookies Brooklyn spilled a glass of juice that was on the counter. Grandma apparently said a little too loud "GET DOWN!" Brooklyn ran off crying, a few minutes later she returned and said to Grandma "Grandma, you scared me to crap!"
Brooklyn: Mom, you know what? Me: What? Brooklyn: (In her most serious voice) Trix are for kids! And that silly rabbit keeps trying to get them! He is such a silly rabbit!
04/10 As I was putting the girls down for a nap I told Baylee that if she got out of bed I was going to spank her butt (I have to threaten in order for her to stay put!) Brooklyn always has to add as soon as I say I am going to spank someones butt "With a spoon." I don't know where she got that from. Anyways Baylee this time decided to say "With a spoo, or a fooook, or a knife. Really harrrd. All I could do was laugh.
5/10 We went into the bathroom this evening and miss Baylee had about 15 of the band-aids removed from the paper, spread out and stuck to the bathroom counter. ARRRGGGG!
Baylee and Jaxsen were going crazy tonight wrestling and running all over the living room! Andrew looked at them as they were crawling all over him and said "Who put a quarter in you?" Baylee responded by saying "ME!"